And to do what I want, And to do what I please, is first of my to do list...

So it's been a little while since I've updated this thing. I've been pretty busy!
So I have this little trip planned to visit Austin. I had a job offer there and was seriously considering this move. Seemed like a cute music filled city with alot to offer. And I've been really ready for a change. Everything was planned to go.
And then, I get a call from my boss. He tells me he wants me to manage one of the biggest offices in the company. Really big pay raise and the opportunity to make a TON. And they pay for all of my moving expenses (for both the house I have now as well as where I am moving), so WHY NOT? Now of course I didn't take it all for the money, I really thought about it and weighed the two options I had. It's so weird how things like that work out. How you think you have one thing finally figured out and then get something totally unexpected.
Soooo, I'm putting my house up for sale and looking for a condo around Prarieville. I have a realtor and am going to look with her on Saturday. I'm super excited! I really love change!
That's all for tonight. I start my new office tomorrow, so I need some sleeeeeeep!

Your Word is "Think"

You see life as an amazing mix of possibilities, ideas, and fascinations. And sometimes you feel like you don't have enough time to take it all in. You love learning. Whether you're in school or not, you're probably immersed in several subjects right now. When you're not learning, you're busy reflecting. You think a lot about the people you know and the things you've experienced.

Take me out tonight...where there's music and there's people.....

So it's Sunday night and I'm up at 3:00 a.m. What do I do? Apparently write.....
This weekend was just what I needed. I'd become so anti-social that I forgot how much fun I had hanging out with my friends. Maybe my horoscope in the last post was right. I really had a great time. Although I'm EXHAUSTED! But thanks for kidnapping me Kassie :)
I'm laughing so hard at my sisters blog she wrote last night..... "I am so bored, sitting in my sisters house.What I really want right now is simple.... a good book, and a dr. pepper. All you can drink over here is daiquiri's and beer, wooo! the choices! ha, well i'm still looking for a good book, hook me up. and a dr. pepper, i'll give you cinco dollars."
That's terrible. I really need to go grocery shopping! My fridge does kinda look like a college student's fridge. GROW UP KRISTI....haha!
I'm a little confused. My neighbors are blaring Christmas music right now. And I moved my Christmas tree out to the road, and they took it. It's seriously in the front of their house. WTF are they planning here??
I went to a play today downtown after another 3 hours of sleep. 6 hours of sleep + 2 nights = definately not enough. Although I could barely keep my eyes open, it was really great. If you haven't heard of Jamie Wax's plays, I recommend them. It's the first I'd seen, but I'm going back this summer to see another one of his. They really have alot of meaning, and really gets your mind thinking....
Well, I'm gonna go read a little bit and hopefully fall asleep soon. Goodnight!!

Then it goes fast, you think of the past, and suddenly everything has changed...

Einstein once said, "The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." I've never truly identified with his definition until just recently.
Anyways.....
So I'm staying in again tonight. I feel like I've become so anti-social lately. I keep saying that but won't do anything to fix it. Life just gets soooooo overwhelming sometimes. I feel like I have alot going on right now, and when I feel like the world is spinning too fast, I have a tendency to shy away from everyone. I guess I'm a loner in that way.
I feel like I need a change. A big one. Im trying to figure out what exactly that all entails. It's like I want a whole new start. New people, new places, the whole nine yards. I've just been waiting for decisions I've made in life to fall into the "absolutely worth it" category, and I can't say many have. When I was a kid I used to have this built in feeling about the future, that I would have life all figured out when I was all done with school and in the "real world." It was so awesome to be clueless back then.
And my dreams have become so vivid, and it's the bridge dreams that have started coming back. I know, me and dreams.... But I just find the subconscious mind so intriguing. I like when people say, "let me sleep on it." I get that. So if you are wondering what's going on with me lately, thats pretty much it.
So Kelsey and I were riding down some road in Denham yesterday. Quote of the day, "This is a really scary road. There's too many redneck things going on all at once." Sometimes it's so true here. People are funny.
I'm really not trying to sound like such a grinch, but I'm ready for Christmas to be over already. I can't enjoy life working all the time like I've been! I really hate growing up. It's one of my fears for some reason. Well that and ducks. And if you know me, you know me and my strange fear of ducks and large birds...haha!
Something completely unrelated...I just got Kevin Drews' album, Spirit If. OMG Amazing! I hadn't heard it in its entirety before now, but I'm impressed :)

This makes me happy.....

Cancer: Daily Horoscope
You can depend on the people around you, so throw all of your doubt out the window.
Stress is peaking now -- but that means it should start to decline soon! If things aren't going smoothly, just shrug your shoulders and write it off. Everything should feel a lot better soon!

Well little blog, that's it for tonight. Goodnight......

And there's good news for people who love bad news....

We shall see....



2009
It is going to be a good year for the Cancer people. Jupiter is in the seventh house for the Cancer zodiac sign symbolizing success and accomplishments in every sphere of their life. This time there are going to be great opportunities to move towards new partnerships whether in business or in love. Also in the year 2009 the Cancer will find itself in a more disciplined routine. At times you may feel that your freedom is limited but then it is going to phase out with time. A close relative will need your financial and mental support. If you are one of the Cancers who is fond of surprises then 2009 offers lot of travel surprises for you. So keep your suitcases ready at all times, as you just might need to catch that flight in the nick of time. As far as the events of 2009 are concerned for Cancers then we can say that just like the year 2008 there would be some strange events with a mystic and spiritual note to it. The partnerships of your life both business and personal will take important change in the year 2009. the yearly prediction shows that these changes will give a new way to the Cancer life and improve their world for the better.

And as long as it's talking with you, talk of the weather will do....

I have no idea what I'm writing about tonight, I just know that I feel like venting! I really never use blogs to vent, but I am making an exception! Today was a HELL OF A DAY. Work has been insane. Gotta love the holidays. Sometimes I just get so aggravated with people at work. I have been working non-stop about 55 hours a week since September. Now I realize that its really not that big of a deal, but it has been for me. We have been short-handed and 2 people are doing the work of 5. I'm EXHAUSTED every day! Not to mention, I don't exactly get to go home and relax when I walk in the door. Please somebody remind me why I'm in finance. Please.

On a brighter note, I just put 852 songs on my iphone. I listen to it at work all day long, and now I don't want to hear anyone bitching that they don't like my music! If they can't find something they like in there, they really should get out from under the rock they've been living under. I think I work with the most narrow minded people to ever exist. I swear my patience is being tested constantly lately. Just try things, and please, have your own brain. Think for yourself. There's a whole world out there people!

Wow, this has become a "me being savage" blog. I so did not intend it to be. It's really not like me, buuuuuut I do mysteriously feel a little better. I promise my next blog will be happy Kristi once again....

Be happy Kassie. I'm trying my best to write in these things so you know what's going on with me lol!

And my night just got better. I just opened one of those 3 pack of starburst and I got 2 reds and a pink. What are those chances? Shazaaaam! What? Did I just say that? Shut up....

I need sleeeeep.....

Without Me You've Got It All....

Yes, the title to this blog applies to me....100% (even though it's the lyrics to a song I've been humming all day long) I seriously think something is wrong with me!! What. The. Crap. I wish I wouldn't have missed the memo on "how to do relationships!" The last one I had...well...whatever it was...seriously the guy was great. He treated me exactly like I've always "thought" I wanted to be treated. Nope, for some reason I felt smothered. Constantly. From the minute he labeled us. Why the hell do I hate labels so much?? They really freak me out. It wasn't because of anything he did. Just because I'm weird. And for no good reason, I end things. I have no doubt, however, that I made the right decision here. I've never really been one to look back. I embrace change all of the time (thank God). Maybe it's part of my "never being able to finish things" kind of life. My independence means so much to me. I hate feeling like people are expecting me to be somewhere, the feeling like I'm tied down to a particular place or thing. Maybe that's the reason I never make plans. I'm hoping one day, I'll just suddenly become normal and do normal things. I doubt it though. What the hell is the definition of "normal" anyways. Lets not kid ourselves...that little old cat lady with a million cats...me all the way ;)

I've been having yet ANOTHER recurring dream. It really sounds pretty ridiculous. I am sitting around with people who appear to be friends. We are all having a good time. Except they are all faceless. I don't recognize any of their voices in real life, so I couldn't tell you who they are. Anyways, we are all sitting around a table like my friend Jeff's table (you know, the big poker table, the one with all the football teams painted on the chairs...) playing poker and eating TONS of leftovers. Its like the land of leftovers in my kitchen. It really has no point, except for the fact I've had this dream now 3 nights in a row! It's getting pretty old.... it could atleast be an interesting dream everynight, like my "bridge" dreams awhile back! Atleast then I was doing a little something different in each dream!!

Looking back on this year, I'm really ready for 2009. I really feel like I've grown this year and just kinda ready for a whole new start. I know, sounds so cliche, but I'm really serious. Of course, I'm not making any kind of resolution. Those were meant to be broken, in my opinion....

Well little blog, that's about it for tonight. This really is a pointless blog, just something to write. I'm sitting next to my Christmas tree...I just love the smell of it :) It's so pretty....I decorated it in fleur de lis, blue and green ornaments.......
**Note** I apologize in advance if it looks as though I'm "following" your blogs twice. I had to delete this and re-do it. You would think my old name would have been deleted. *shrugs* Ok, now I'll stop babbling. Anyways.... Goodnight...